https://laurastortenbeker.com laura stortenbeker Fri, 13 Jan 2023 01:59:29 +0000 https://laurastortenbeker.com en http://laurastortenbeker.com/think-I-ll-pack-it-in-and Fri, 13 Jan 2023 01:59:29 +0000 laura stortenbeker 436522 <img width="3349" height="5024" width_o="3349" height_o="5024" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/8fbbec0854f9813ac6a4089e38e17beb25f8ba4051251f644999b6323c9bee5f/000076a.jpg" data-mid="1256051" border="0" /> <img width="2627" height="3941" width_o="2627" height_o="3941" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/2ac72fab81da59781a5e7a86aa6fe7e78031bc5df8c1b0d64737aa8d26ca1b02/000068a.jpg" data-mid="1256055" border="0" /> <img width="5072" height="3381" width_o="5072" height_o="3381" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/254029c0d5fc0a1541335c8aa264135e1293a872c0c1aa4875fb59c771b12661/000072a.jpg" data-mid="1256050" border="0" /> <img width="5698" height="3799" width_o="5698" height_o="3799" 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src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/134a724373645c88b6cdf67ce5569d0961fa469ecd1f1a5a2a06f49c7d1e53a0/000054-1a.jpg" data-mid="1256071" border="0" /> http://laurastortenbeker.com/loops-wet-hair Sun, 10 Apr 2022 05:07:33 +0000 laura stortenbeker 422705 there are a few hidden pages on this website with older work and if I pull lines from some of them it’s like, bet you’re gonna tuck your hair behind your ear soon cheek to cheek with the mountain in a rush, before you said ‘can we keep going now’I forgot about my birthmark again, certain light + certain gestures still make me feel good gutted, looping back to small and clear desires‘the car is parked, it’s light out, your hair has grown back down to your shoulders,’ new fast thoughts + still moments, there is space for -- there is a memory of a meteor shower and a love letter and a chart and a set of photographs that match in colour. There are pictures from car windows, a scanned list on pink paper, a different photograph of smoke after an earthquake, the first chapter of my book. Sometimes I forget those pages are there and when I go into the backend and find them it’s like why did you put that there, they’re not really a secret,&nbsp; this week I was in the back of a fast car listening to badlands honey I want the heart I want the soul I want control right now and then I thought about how sometimes it’s easy to deploy a baby or a honey or another tender genderless word in a song, get caught in a big elated pop song loop and feel no trouble at all, post-party nosebleed and how right now I am into getting high and walking around at night and I am into how cold a flower feels in the morning and I am into wet hair, as always,&nbsp; <img width="1930" height="2896" width_o="1930" height_o="2896" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/ffe47299809241e59d73a1334b11cbac30c6a87b38e4650e5a6afb4873cf78fb/000064-13.jpg" data-mid="1179898" border="0" /> <img width="1656" height="2484" width_o="1656" height_o="2484" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/fdec564297b65550deaa6fd84d88aaab66cbab3a8e7b83e78c79becd37739792/000067-4.jpg" data-mid="1179897" border="0" /> documenting has always been important to me, as notes and as images and as in being able to remember almost everything. To focus on the ways I have seen people comb their hair right out of the shower, to focus on the people who have washed their hair in front of me, all those early mornings, thinking about how I comb my own hair after I wash it and how I’ve felt when someone else has been looking at me. I don’t know what I’m trying to get at, I guess a routine tenderness. I watched my friend get ready for work once and felt like I loved her more than ever. it’s always felt cool to write in relation to an image, so that’s me in a hotel room with wet hair in a forced documentation because I wanted to remember how I looked at a point in time where I felt happy but keep having the feeling that I will accidentally die soon. I had seen the souvenir part one + part two the night before and that, specifically the colours and specifically the dread, made the feeling more intense than it has been. I had been wearing suit pants to the beach, I had been wearing myself out in good ways. Before I showered I went on a four hour walk and the wind blew my shirt open up on the cliffs, my whole chest out, trying to have fast hands to close the fabric, kind of funny for it to happen there in view of the water. It made me feel shy but fine. I get to go back soon and that also makes me feel shy but fine. after this I did comb my hair, I combed it all back and then I rinsed my hands, I thought about the things that we can write in the steam on a mirror, I did that too. I like the photograph because I felt like myself. and then there’s brand new camellias --- before I took this I watched someone try to photograph a butterfly, he said not easy, it's not easy. I had walked quite far, sweating through the city, I still love when you’re too fast and a picture doesn’t turn out. Camellias are wild to me because they’re so blatantly beautiful and have this very soil based smell, not really sweet at all. These were in the first few days of the season and they were already hot from the sun when I reached up above my head to touch one. <img width="1833" height="2748" width_o="1833" height_o="2748" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/e4d3db8e8897fc4b051d956df376888d374e516d21ff5531cb7654dbbbf36d50/000041-5.jpg" data-mid="1179899" border="0" /> thinking of touch, I didn’t realise until recently that some of the times I feel most like myself is when I’m packing my things into boxes or suitcases, you know, touching my things, knowing what I need, neat folds in clothes, giving away books I love but won’t read again, realising I get to keep being myself and that I am very lucky. the inside of my suitcase is what I’d call a bad blue, too muted and corporate. There’s also a bad blue in this picture, I think it’s kind of off, the sea right before a storm, but how lucky to be able to take the time to sit there and watch all that lightning for hours, to see the colour of the sky span out so far, and to go home safe with wet hair, to comb it, to know there are a few hidden pages on this website with older work and if I pull lines from some of them it’s like, bet you’re gonna tuck your hair behind your ear... http://laurastortenbeker.com/b Fri, 09 Oct 2020 04:55:55 +0000 laura stortenbeker 386862 dear b,&nbsp; I want to tell you every little thing all the time and I think that’s why this is so slow, there was a moment earlier this year when the light hit your face in the park, you were rolling up your sleeve + about to get on your bike and it made me feel like I would always love you and always be surprised by it --- there are so many good things in my life but you’re the person I want to spend all my time with, who I want to read to and be read by, who I want to have smart and stupid conversations, I can keep up and then I can’t keep up and it is the best thing. I didn’t know this was what I wanted and then I met you and my life shifted, I feel more like myself with you than anyone else, I want to make you proud and for you to be happy, I want more kissing behind the freezer door, looping through public gardens, sitting out the front of your house, tea in bed, walking to work together, listening to you talk about your work and the ways you want to keep helping people, understanding how to be the best to you so you can do all the things you want of course it is not perfect but it isn’t meant to be but there is devotion and desire and trust and joy and new fast thoughts and still moments, there is space for both of us,&nbsp; dear b,&nbsp; I want to tell you every little thing all the time and I think that’s why this is so slow, there was a moment earlier this year when the light hit... http://laurastortenbeker.com/gel Fri, 22 May 2020 01:23:02 +0000 laura stortenbeker 368312 <img width="644" height="902" width_o="644" height_o="902" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/43cd59de90615d6cd6b8de6441c38598085cfc750c81a2973a043344e5cadd98/Screen-Shot-2020-05-21-at-11.17.15-AM-111.jpg" data-mid="926624" border="0" /> grasslands peonies little soft daisies tall grass cut grass a repeat landscape, a landscape that never falters, smoke signals soft spots nosebleeds meadows low light, back of the car again, the season cools and evens me out <img width="644" height="902" width_o="644" height_o="902" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/43cd59de90615d6cd6b8de6441c38598085cfc750c81a2973a043344e5cadd98/Screen-Shot-2020-05-21-at-11.17.15-AM-111.jpg" data-mid="926624" border="0" /> grasslands peonies little soft daisies tall grass cut grass a repeat landscape, a landscape that never falters, smoke signals soft spots nosebleeds meadows low light, back of the car again, the season cools and evens me out here there are brand new nasturtiums, hellebores, I put both my arms through a fence to break off a flower, I dreamed my father put me on his shoulders to watch a meteor shower and the whole sky was pulsing with them, thousands, it would never be like that, but it is what I’d want I meant it when I said I had stopped wanting things, I wanted different things, I hadn’t wanted things before, I have had the soft hair on the back of my neck cut close many times, I forgot about my birthmark again, certain light + certain gestures still make me feel good gutted, looping back to small and clear desires grasslands peonies little soft daisies tall grass cut grass a repeat landscape, a landscape that never falters, smoke signals soft spots nosebleeds meadows low... http://laurastortenbeker.com/premonitions-as-photographs Wed, 03 Apr 2019 02:29:29 +0000 laura stortenbeker 318300 pressure or pleasure writing directly into my website premonitions or visions (as photographs) have held a beam of light on my armbet you’re gonna tuck your hair behind your ear soonleaned across me to reach for her keys and said 'don't get fooled' cheek to cheek with the mountain in a rush, before you said ‘can we keep going now’ sometimes I will do this thing where I imagine my life as a series of photographs that don’t exisit yet and I do my best to describe them in great detail, pure detail, too close to colours etc. pressure or pleasure writing directly into my website premonitions or visions (as photographs) have held a beam of light on my armbet you’re gonna tuck your... http://laurastortenbeker.com/constant-arrangement Wed, 21 Nov 2018 02:11:39 +0000 laura stortenbeker 298989 <img width="1183" height="1578" width_o="1183" height_o="1578" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/c9995d6e3e747f8f8288720d61b4997cc314ced57c2d5365c97692fc92bea984/000055-2.JPG" data-mid="645659" border="0" /> <img width="1117" height="1488" width_o="1117" height_o="1488" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/f2b73b688f3801b5e6226c780cec2f6f9ef6ee8f0cb44db8a125497c7bc981e1/000061-5.JPG" data-mid="645683" 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http://laurastortenbeker.com/flows Mon, 30 Apr 2018 00:55:13 +0000 laura stortenbeker 267686 <img width="643" height="905" width_o="643" height_o="905" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/86181006fbc7bb0d674c2292a063de1a02a5e6faede5cdc5f75d13296708bcc9/flows-5.JPG" data-mid="433037" border="0" /> <img width="645" height="897" width_o="645" height_o="897" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/4fade1bc9f02f8991f0bde27e9dc9dcdc690b15ca401fef0779ec1fe0c112db0/flows-6.JPG" data-mid="433035" border="0" /> <img width="646" height="905" width_o="646" height_o="905" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/e13e5e6edc12f063659d97f458addc6c492b9f23e56ffdd7632f5596a4184d58/flows-7.JPG" data-mid="433038" border="0" /> <img width="646" height="912" width_o="646" height_o="912" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/aedb405355efbc4470c0da1c5b0acb86202be37b016b322b8ad3f33ff3ad6ede/flows-12.JPG" data-mid="433253" border="0" /> <img width="645" height="908" width_o="645" height_o="908" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/22cc84cb5fba949ddc0b5bd7259dd032b3120f2be0daa439ff94167436d53236/flows-9.JPG" data-mid="433047" border="0" /> <img width="646" height="917" width_o="646" height_o="917" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/f5fe42b532b7b0b878be4691c85e6cce3c0c9753195b1a00792f23fec035c396/flows-11.JPG" data-mid="433254" border="0" /> http://laurastortenbeker.com/Untitled-page Fri, 27 Apr 2018 01:51:51 +0000 laura stortenbeker 267253 notes on an image that doesn’t exist yet you half leaning out an open car window, the car is parked it's light out, your hair has grown back down to your shoulders, you're wearing that white t-shirt that once turned blue in the wash, like all our other things, you're not looking at me, I bet you’re thinking about your thesis, I bet you’re thinking about writing about home, I bet you’re thinking about how I look standing over there camera pointed at you, I bet you’re gonna tuck your hair behind your ear soon, look over, will the pink light change, I think in this one it's early afternoon, I bet one of us will say ‘i love you’ kinda like making&nbsp; eyes like that at me, makes me feel heated (like you always say) you’ll tap your hand lightly on the side of the car in a jazz form, you’ll think of a song idea even though you said you wouldn’t write them anymore, that no more girls would get songs, sun will beam hot for a few minutes, all light up on your arms, then back to a lilac fade, can we keep going now notes on an image that doesn’t exist yet you half leaning out an open car window, the car is parked it's light out, your hair has grown back down to your... http://laurastortenbeker.com/overpass-l-light Mon, 05 Mar 2018 05:31:30 +0000 laura stortenbeker 256582 <img width="1859" height="444" width_o="1859" height_o="444" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/1420d8e78567c9a2f516fc71356905c63be3455d8ce5d7fd7ad326cf4350acbe/overpass-1.JPG" data-mid="380593" border="0" /> <img width="1859" height="920" width_o="1859" height_o="920" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/0aba6daea1bb0bdafee6c5b0e7cab7c9786896ae94975573b72a937d7fcd2b43/overpass-2.JPG" data-mid="380597" border="0" /> <img width="1861" height="317" width_o="1861" height_o="317" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/34a06891670275bb7ff8354c14ab32ab3a8c20eeeff90fbe4c0a6b4032da3953/overpass-4.JPG" data-mid="380596" border="0" /> gotta find the highway lookout look down at those lights, stop, but still (be still) red light on your face, on fire I love you (be still for me) white lights back of the car back of you back of your head I'm pressing you into me (still feel y) curve that road, light beam don't curve, hold a mirror in your hand, reflect that red light onto your chest (undo one more button), have got a new freckle on my breast but won't show you til later in the year (like that), look out down at those traffic paths, look up, no lights least not good ones nothing cosmic to discuss (let’s go) it’s cool out deep blue fade in, okay, let's go, <img width="1860" height="507" width_o="1860" height_o="507" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/89e0676b24ddddd8c269da17e21e2c4aad52c8b08d811457263a3178d6d3417a/overpass-3.JPG" data-mid="380598" border="0" /> <img width="1858" height="538" width_o="1858" height_o="538" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/908bd43c95042db7b73889ac5dfb708bc42d29a83f957cb4cdd688a60b923169/overpass-5.JPG" data-mid="380594" border="0" /> but watch the fuck out, those cars, those lights, oh still overpasses (play it like that) you pushed it too far, asked that, saw your face and the light change can’t think kindly of me anymore didn’t do what you wanted (if I do what you want) you’d rather be solo but that’s not all of it either (right right), hey, hand off that highway feeling, (get your hands off me, my collar, you’ve got it alright), get on in someone else’s car, leaned over the dash to touch, hey, hand on thigh, what gets to you, (all of it, watching these lights with you), (is this what you like, you asked me), what gives, how fast, oh right that’s how it feels (fully) are you flushed? is your face red from light or blood <img width="1857" height="497" width_o="1857" height_o="497" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/d108d62fcccfc1dc9da40285a958c6b511bccd7cdd258b6c7852c7c791dc85a7/overpass-11b-.JPG" data-mid="380606" border="0" /> <img width="1856" height="926" width_o="1856" height_o="926" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/a1fa4bbb316dd539f48aa8ee6f3f3f80d49e06ce474a00bd78f19436fb400dc8/overpass-12.JPG" data-mid="380607" border="0" /> <img width="1859" height="599" width_o="1859" height_o="599" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/80e8122bc76542362a950dbbfaa5247447708bf0761fe9ebd7cb7db7cbe49086/overpass-7.JPG" data-mid="380599" border="0" /> <img width="1858" height="428" width_o="1858" height_o="428" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/3a110c5e6b03f3721119209d86555fa86f8309c3948c3f985c2337589a5f8f17/overpass-14l.JPG" data-mid="380610" border="0" /> times you’ve let someone drunk drive you home (take me home) yeah yeah but everyone wants you, wanna know, wanna try, alright,&nbsp; that's me to me -- that good young body --- hey take it easy know you've been out again , don't know what I'd,cool it, just get in the car half a mouth of wine (red), kinda see better, can you spell accelerator with your eyes closed eyes red, we we're --- got cut, don't ask me about it because I won't tell you (who was she), oh, just me now, cannot meet you in the eye won't look know you saw me though but it feels good when someone lets you smoke in the car right, window slit open, a temper controlled, make up kinda fast, don’t know if I could,&nbsp; <img width="1857" height="856" width_o="1857" height_o="856" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/2fadd4f78b92b23ecaca2a8a432233b0a6c872bf58630fce4a58fd5cbfb02fe9/overpass-8.JPG" data-mid="380600" border="0" /> <img width="1860" height="603" width_o="1860" height_o="603" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/2f7adab4140204c8b0413c68662f85f17ff3533b5ba2b2a62a0336e031c51be2/overpass-14-b.JPG" data-mid="380609" border="0" /> my hair isn’t always wet but climb back into bed with it like that (comb it out for me with your hands) don’t need to ask you much anymore, course I turned red for you don’t tell me you didn’t see that <img width="1862" height="801" width_o="1862" height_o="801" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/516aea9d0ad401e6c88bffa4f92265d4b171dbd65f62304cd975c29eaa540ba0/overpass-9.JPG" data-mid="380601" border="0" /> <img width="1858" height="933" width_o="1858" height_o="933" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/c72ca033735b3ec04336d7416d4afe10b6499fffce916b0fdd2f79f5b79b198a/overpass-14.JPG" data-mid="380608" border="0" /> &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; that’s a new bruise to you <img width="1859" height="491" width_o="1859" height_o="491" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/53cd0d3ec8beba017c2d5f991ee6ce9de6bc43c8af1eedaeb5d8bdc6bcc0059c/overpass-11.JPG" data-mid="380602" border="0" /> and if you come back to this place I'll be the lookout, if you come back to watch the lights (feel lightheaded), I will learn to drive, got caught up, but I know you, know of you now, <img width="1859" height="626" width_o="1859" height_o="626" src_o="https://cortex.persona.co/t/original/i/83a52ab9f5cbe6de4d5dd14e57ab50551cc860c7e38d96b7e6f8efdf70aae5eb/overpass-11a.JPG" data-mid="380603" border="0" /> gotta find the highway lookout look down at those lights, stop, but still (be still) red light on your face, on fire I love you (be still...